Pointless

I feel like I have to mention this once a month, I do not know why these certain situations keep coming up.

It amazes me what people will exert so much energy on and what they focus on for so long. If they would put half as much energy into something else maybe they would be a little more important. This goes for everyone, even me when I lose focus.

At 20 years old I feel like the conversations I have should not consist of "he said that you told her...". Seriously? I am trying to get my degree! Ask me about my GPA before anything like that.

If it is not helping you or making you happy I simply ask why?

Save pointless conversations about pointless people in the context of your life.

Drop

Ice in my veins
- blood never flows, not truly alive
blood in my eyes
-paint too much to bear, more than tears
hate in my heart
- cannot let go of the past
love on my mind
-thinking of when love will stay
hurt but never cry
- hidden pain
the top gets higher the more i climb
- never getting what you want
all this bullshit made me stronger
-regardless I keep going
and i could die now
- wonders who will care
confidence is a stain they cant wipe off
-duh!
murdered and bribed
-seen bad
pain you will never know
- no one can ever understand
walls are closing in
- the end is near
crooked mind got them scared to look in my eyes
-remain complex so they wont get close
sleep on me and your head will like there permanently
- need for attention

We still do that . . .

I do not know about you all but I talk about people. All the time, usually for laughS but regardless I will talk about you and your friends. Say something stupid or wear something ugly, I will always have something to say. That's just what I do. Hate it or love it. It is apart of who I am. Someone always has something to say so why shouldn't I ? I am well aware that people talk about me, good and bad, it happens!

Do I care ? NO! Should you? No

I always say consider the source and how serious it was. Who cares what someone has to say. I will not (repeats self), will not go on some wild chase as if I am Bush looking for Osama to see who said what. We still do that? Not me.

I suggest when you hear something, shrug your shoulders and move one. People always claim they do not care what people have to say but will spend so much energy on it. Does it make sense to you ?

Not me! Grow up! Move on! ... and I am going to keep talking. :)

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Fall For Your Type

Can I ... Can I save you from you

Because you know there somethings missing

Live girl, have some fun girl

Making a mistake I never learned from

I always fall for your type

Tell me why

I just can't explain this shit at all

Drake's Song! I love it. I need about 2 more minutes and video played on someones top 10 list.

Simply great!

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Random

I am a little off. Somewhat different. Not quite like the rest.

Cinderella should have beat down both sisters and should have worn a short dress to the ball. Snow white should have died in the forest, 7 guys one girl! Seriously?

See what I mean ? Normal ? Me ? Not so much.

I wear Tiffany's, but I want a bomber jacket. Contemplating purchasing some cowboy boots.

At the age of 2o I will cry over a bad grade before a boy.

I will yell about money before hurt feelings.

Thats just Stephanie

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Excuse me your age is showing ...

When you were 2 it was "ok" to cry when you were told no and to go in the corner until someone comforted you.

When you were 16 it was common for you to slam doors and quickly let the person on the other line hear the dial tone.

Now that we are all over 18, it is time to express your frustration wait for a response and get on with your life.

To further explain myself if you are over 21 and are filling your social networks with your angry emotions and empty threats PLEASE slowly back away from the computer and do something with your life. If you exerted half as much energy in something that was important maybe you would be a little more important.

We all know your age can you please let your actions display that.

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You Decide

I have learned and sometimes continue to learn that sometimes people really do not matter in the context of your life. Sometimes for obvious reasons and at other times for no reason at all. Those people who play no role honestly do no deserve anything from you.

With that said :

Don't let anybody get the best of you especially when you owe them nothing and they mean nothing to you!

All you have to decide is to choose who those people are going to be.


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Remember me ?

It has been so long I have no idea where to begin. I guess I can say that I have been bust but I am not sure how completely true that is.

School is over and I am officially a junior in college. WOW *takes breathe*

I feel a binge blog about to occur....be ready! It has been a long time coming.


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Ummmm

Just checking in! Nothing much to say! Check out some old stuff. My personal faves "Masturbation" and "Investment" !!!

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I been gone to long

I made this February 8th...and I forgot to post it! Sorry I'm late!

How do you feel about quickies?

Dissapoinment

When people build themselves up and then let you down.

When you expect so much and never get it.

When their efforts are only there because they want something from you.

When you patiently wait....and wait...and they keep you waiting.

When it takes so much time to build trust and seconds to break it.

This is:



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Fact

Broke people cannot be around nice things. They are not used to it so they do not know how to take care of it. Rude? Oh well most facts are!

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Stephanie Documentation 20

Surprised me! ....State of shock. I was silent!

There are no lines

A common saying is read between the lines, there is a hidden message, there is always more behind words. This is true but not always. What I say and what I mean is clear, no hidden messages! I want you to know exactly what I mean and how I feel. With that said, I don't say things because they sound good! I say it because it's true. Your feelings and EGO are not my concern! If you cannot tell I am pretty much wrapped up in my self at the moment. By moment I mean at all times in this stage of my life. So why would I appease you?

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Isn't she lovely

While browsing online to make the time go by faster I seen the most beautiful thing. I felt like there should have been a light glowing from above and a choir signing "aaaaaawwwwwww" . Yes it what that type of moment!
It's color is exquisite!
It's simplicity is breathtaking!
The meaning is me, this amethyst is everything!



http://www.tiffany.com/Shopping/Item.aspx?fromGrid=1&sku=23985373&mcat=148207&cid=563632&search_params=s+5-p+1-c+563632-r+101323357-x+-n+6-ri+-ni+0-t+

HaHa

Name Dropper

New comers to the game are slipping and falling like a toddler walking for the first time. Sit down and look up and let me educate on what not to do. The most important rule is to never ever name drop when you are trying to find out information. This will create drama and give you unnecessary attention that will hinder the next time. Don't ever be a name dropper, especially if its my name. Eh eh! Silly silly itty bitty piggy no common sense having females. Tisk Tisk. There are other ways to find out information and if you cannot find it out then you suck at life.

Silly Name Dropper !!!

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Stephanie Documentation 18

I will not tolerate disrespect. I will not look stupid for anyone. These are two things that will never change!

This is not about contingency this is set it stone!

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Rejected

IM BACK and FYI.....

Grand

I am currently sitting at my uncles house and my grandmother has came to visit. She lives in another state and my uncle and his wife have recently had a baby. She rocks him as she feeds him and every time she removes the bottle he smiles. This is her 36 grandchild she looks at him with joy in her eyes as if it was her first. I sit on the couch and smile at the sight of the two. She looks over at me and she says wow I remember when I used to hold you, 19 years ago. She smiled. Something about this make me feel warm. There is nothing like a grandparents love. Nothing like their care and attention. It is the word, it is simply grand.

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Rare

I am currently watching the Notebook and I love this movie. It's so sad but beautiful at the same time. I am young women that has a strong grasp on reality especially for my age. I never expect to much or to little. This movie softens me every time, giving me a sense of hope into a fairytale lifestyle.

Is it possible that a love so strong could exist? That no matter how much time passed or how many miles separate you the love is still there.
Not just a memory or a mere thought but the love is steal beating, pulsating through your being.
It lives in you and you never want to let it go. To love someone so much you don't know what to do with out them

Is it possible?

In the movie she says "Do you think our love could create miracles"

Can it?

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Welcome Mats

In 2010 I expected a lot of things but not this. I knew it would exist but not in such mas amounts.
We have welcome/doormat bit...uumm *clears throat* females. They are everywhere! Like cockroaches, ants and maggots!

Are you wondering what a welcome mat female is? It is self explanatory. They are getting walked all over, footprints all over their faces. Just dirty! Females need to step it up! This doormat phase is not a good look!

No more welcome mats please!

Curious to Know

Why? You do not have to answer me but answer yourself and if it makes sense to you I will be done.

Why do you invest so much of your time into people who are not worth it?
By worth it simply means they have proved to you that they are not worth anything!
They have disrespected you and they have made it obvious that your feelings do not matter!

Why do you hide it from me that you continue to speak to this person? Are you embarrassed?
You should be!

I am curious to know why you do these stupid self destructive things!

It makes me look down you, I respect you more than you respect yourself!

Call it what you want

Just because I tolerate your presence doesn't mean I am impressed or even remotely interested that you exist! So stop doing so much, I am not impressed. I just ask that you be aware of this, I will humor you but not for long!

This is pretty bland but its my point....eehh

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#imjustsaying

I pride myself on knowing myself pretty well, flaws and all. I may have just discovered something else, I am became a little bit defensive. Or it could be that I just noticed it. I just hate when there are underlying implications that I am dumb, average and or simple. Only because I am not! Choose your words carefully I am liable to bite your head off!!

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